My Journey - Warts and All

60 mins - Zumba class

30 mins - Nice crosstrainer - intensity 10 5 mins - Normal bike - intensity 5 15 mins - Sitting back bike - intensity 5 1 x circuit of weights 30 mins - Arm thing - intensity 6 25 mins - Mean Crosstrainer - intensity 8 60 mins - Zumba Class

Managed to drag my ass to the gym today and it was about time! I also booked 3 classes for next week so I'll be doing: Monday - Zumba Tuesday - Zumba (just at a local hall in Kelty) Wednesday - Step Thursday - Body Combat Had a bit of moment in the gym as well. I haven't been happy for a very long time. Not with my life, I love my husband, my family and my true friends but with myself. I've known for years that losing weight would help my PCOS and I know the things that I should and shouldn't eat but I haven't done it. For years, I've just been the jolly fat girl who doesn't fully trust anyone and won't confide in anyone unless I've had a couple of drinks. Always trying to please other people. I would go as far to say that I hated myself.  But times are changing. This is my year! The weight is going! My studies are demanding more of my time so I need to concentrate on that. So this time next year, I'll be smaller and a fully qualified nu...

30 mins - Treadmill (2 mins jogging, 2 mins walking) 20 mins - Mean crosstrainer intensity 8 30 mins - Nice crosstrainer intensity 10 10 mins - Treadmill, cool down

It really hasn't been a good week this week. I'm not eaten well and I've only been to the gym once (twice if you include tomorrow). I think I'll have put weight on this week. I just need to get right back on the horse next week.I'm planning on going to the gym tomorrow and Sunday am so hopefully will keep any weight gain to a minimum. Things are getting better, I feel better. I've just lost my motivation :-( On a plus though, I've went to the new gym in Dunfermline and its really nice! I think I'm finding my training schedule for the 5k particularly hard. I just really need to force myself back into it.  I still have my 3 little pieces of motivation (anyone who read my Willpower post will know what I mean lol). Proof attached below. The packaging was completely silver at one point but they've been in my bag so long, they're a bit more tatty looking! :-)

This is my target dress! Love it!

30 mins on treadmill - 2 mins jogging, 2 mins running for 20 mins 30 mins on Just Dance

It's been a weird few days, probably since last Saturday. I'm starting to feel a lot better being on this diet. I can feel the symptoms of my PCOS relieving themselves. I actually wake up in the morning and feel ready to just get up and get on with it. I didn't really think it would happen after only losing just over a stone but I can def feel some changes.  My uni work is stressing me out no end though. There is so much work to do and not an awful lot of time to do it in. I really just need to knuckle down and get organised but at the same time. I'm sure it will all come together (fingers crossed!!).

1 hour - Dance on Broadway 4 hours - Housework and moving furniture (I ended up moving one of my chairs up the stairs. My weight training is done for the week!!)

Well I went out this weekend for lunch, dinner and dancing. It was a brilliant day and night. At lunchtime I ate really well. Stuck to water and had a lovely salad. At night I wasn't so good. I had a fair bit of alcohol and ate half a pizza. I danced a lot and still managed to lose 2lbs this week. I weighed myself on Friday and had lost 4 lbs so the alcohol has put the weight on. At the end of the day though, I lost weight so its heading in the right direction. Back on the wagon now though and when I go out in the future, I'll be off the booze. Its just not worth it.  Week 3 is always a hard week for me. Its the point where my body just seems to do exactly the opposite of what I want. Its normally the week that I start to lose heart. But not this time....

I'm going out this weekend so decided to weight myself today to see how I had done this week. Its really my first full week of eating right and upping my game with the exercise. I'm not going to post what I've lost or gained, I'll post on Sunday as normal. I've signed up for Race for Life!! Woo hoo the countdown to the run has begun!!!  http://www.raceforlifesponsorme.org/jameslairdcorbett Please please sponsor me!!

30 mins Treadmill (1 min jogging, 1 min walking) 20 mins mean crosstrainer - intensity 10 30 mins nice crosstrainer - intensity 8 2 x circuits of weight machines 10 mins Treadmill Cool Down

This weekend will be the first time since I started eating healthy that I have to eat out. More than a little bit apprehensive. I have 2 choices, I can eat what I want and potentially have to sort out my blood sugars again on the  Monday OR  I can eat following the GI diet and continue the way I've been going. I know where I'm going to eat and I've looked at the menus. I think I need to keep going the way that I'm going. If I eat healthy, I can have a couple of glasses of wine on Saturday night. I'm going to Nando's and Pizza Express (menus below). Wish me luck lol Nando's menu Pizza Express Menu

30 mins - Treadmill. Walking 1 mins, jogging 1 mins 10 mins - Stepper Intensity 6 2 x circuits of weight machines 20 mins - Mean Crosstrainer Intensity 7 Only did 90 mins today because the gym I went to today was awful. Too small and not enough machines :-(

15 mins on Just Dance 45 mins on Dance on Broadway

I wasn't sure what I was going to do this but I am.  Here are my before photos :-(  Its just disgusting! :-(

Well Cancer Research UK have announced their dates for the Race For Life. I'm going to be doing it on Sunday 24 June in Kirkcaldy. I'm following a training programme for runners but I think I'll only be jogging it. So for my first week I have to do 20 mins on the crosstrainer with one minute running and one minute walking. 2nd week - 2 mins run, 1 min walk, repeated 8 times 3rd week - 4 mins run, 1 min walk, repeated 6 times 4th week - 5 mins run, 1 min walk, repeated 5 times 5th week - 8 mins run, 2 min walk, repeated 4 times 6th week - Gently jog for 25 mins a time It seems to unattainable at the moment but I managed week one today so I'm hoping I can do it tomorrow as well. Come Monday I hope that I'll be running for 2 mins but if push comes to shove, I'll do each weekly plan over 2 weeks. I have plenty of time until the Race any way.

Today's Activity 30 mins - Treadmill. One min walking and one min running 20 mins - Mean crosstrainer. Intensity 10 30 mins - Nice crosstrainer. Intensity 8 2 x circuits of the weight machines 10 mins - Treadmill cool down

I've never considered myself one of these lucky people who have a load of willpower. In fact I would say I'm exactly the opposite but I've set myself a wee challenge to test what little willpower I have. In my handbag are 3 chocolate sweets that I got off my granny ages ago. They've just sat in the bottom of my bag and I had totally forgotten about them. During a wee craving for sugar this week, I found them and really felt like I needed them. BUT I didn't have them. So they've become sort of like a reminder that I don't need any crappy food. I watched One Born Every Minute this week and there was a woman on it who suffered from the same thing I do, PCOS. She made a good point as well. PCOS is affected by weight and to have a baby she was told that she had to lose it. She would starting weighing up junk food with a baby. Now I know that Matt and I aren't at the baby making phase yet but ultimately if I want to have a family I need to get rid of my ex...

Here's today's tracker 30 mins - Treadmill, incline 7, speed 3 20 mins - Mean crosstrainer intensity 10 30 mins - Nice crosstrainer intensity 8 2 x Circuits of the weight machines 10 mins - Treadmill, cool down Good times!!

I can't believe I lost 9lbs this week!! Its the smallest I've been in a long time and I'm so chuffed!!! Going to step up the gym this week and will hopefully lose even more next week. I know that research shows it takes approx 7 attempts to break the cycle and successfully lose weight and I think that this is my 7th time. The psychic told me that I would lose my weight this year so I'm hoping that this is it. It has to be..........

I'm a bit nervous about my weigh in tomorrow. I haven't been the gym as much as I would have liked but I have been eating well so I'm hoping that that's enough to have lost something. I kicked my own arse at the gym today so I'm hoping that will have some impact. Today in itself will be a challenge. I don't have any plans at all now that I'm back from the gym and if I'm honest, I'd normally eat crap when I'm bored. Going to get onto the degree work I have to do and hopefully take my mind off it.  Will post again tomorrow when I've weighed in. Cross your fingers for me!!

Tracker for today 20 mins - Nice Cross trainer Intensity 7 30 mins - Treadmill Incline 6, speed 3 20 mins - Circuit of the weight machines (I have no idea what any of them are called lol) 15 mins - Mean cross trainer Intensity 7 10 mins - Stepper thing Intensity 3 15 mins - 2nd circuit of the weight machines. I couldn't lift my arms anymore to do the last 2 machines so only did 15 mins the second time round 10 mins - Treadmill Cool down

Today is my dad's birthday. He would have been 56 years old. I can't believe that its been 10 years in May that we lost him.  Its when something big happens that I realise how much I miss him. Meeting Matt, our engagement, the wedding and now my nursing training. I finish up this year and will have my graduation ceremony next year so that'll be another thing to add to the things that he's missed. He's also my biggest inspiration. He was an amazing man, kind, caring and extremely loving towards his family. He worked hard to provide for us with everything that he could. He's my hero. When I lose faith in my nursing or in fact my weight loss, I just think about him and remember how encouraging he would be. 

This won't seem like a big deal but it was to me.  I ate broccoli, peas and carrots with my tea tonight!!!! A full portion no less.  Anyone who knows me, knows that I don't eat green stuff at all. Seems childish for a 29 year old woman :-) I've been good today with my food. Tomorrow I need to work on drinking more, I definitely didn't drink enough today That's tomorrow challenge!!

I didn't do as long in the gym today as I expected but here it is; Treadmill - incline 7, speed 3 mph - 30 mins Mean crosstrainer - resistance 6 - 10 mins Nice crosstrainer - resistance 7 - 20 mins TOTAL 60 mins

Well I wasn't as well behaved as I should have been when I met my friend for lunch :-( But I made up for it by the power walk that I did to the nursing office yesterday when I thought our deadline was 12noon. It wasn't it was 2pm but the walk did me good. Then I braved Asda last night to try and get some healthy food in the cupboards. I'm just going to say it, it's cheaper being fat!!! I can't believe how expensive it is to try and eat healthy! I'm trying to follow a low GI diet so that I feel fuller for longer so went to buy super lean beef mince last night. It was double the price of normal beef mince! I'm aware at this point that I sound like a crazy old lady but what I spent last night on a week's worth of shopping wasn't a kick in the backside off what I spend for 2/3 weeks worth normally. Anyway, I just need to keep the end result in sight! I got my target dress last yesterday as well and its great inspiration hanging on my wardrobe door :-...

I'm meeting my friend for lunch today and I know that as soon as I look at the menu I'm going to be in a world of confusion! I figured head straight for the salads, can't really go wrong. Then I read an article yesterday called 'Is your salad cheating you?' I had no idea! I figured as I don't eat 'green stuff'anyway, a salad would be a good way to go. According to this article, I should avoid caesar salad and a couple of others.To be totally honest, a caesar salad was probably the only type I knew! I understand that its because of mayo based dressings but then it started to get into colours of leaf etc etc.  The article was so confusing, I can explain the cardiovascular system better than I understood that article yesterday. So I've had a look at the menu and I think if I stick to a sandwich on brown, I'll be ok. Fingers crossed....... If all else fails, I'm getting my gym pass today so I'll work like a demon at the gym and burn it ...

I did a wee bit of exercise of morning, not a lot but its a start for the week.  30 mins of housework 45 mins of Just Dance on the Wii x

I had a psychic reading this week which was both impromptu and unexpected. She told me quite a bit but below are a few things that I'm happy to share. - I will lose my weight - I'm going to have a little girl and then a little boy.  - She wasn't sure when I would get pregnant but she could tell me that they would be running about within the next 4 years - She also told me the names that Matt and I have already picked out for them. Freaky stuff So I'm putting this out in cyber space now so that if I forget everything that was said, I'll have a record of it. She told me lots of things that have happened in the past that no one else would know and I didn't know this woman from Adam. So we'll see......... 

My first weigh in details are below: Weight: 18st 8lbs Height: 5 ft 4in The idea of detailing info which is personal and frankly embarrassing, is hopefully this will encourage me to keep up with it Please don't judge me.........

My first blog entry!! This is going to be about me and all the stuff that I've got going on in life. I'm a student nurse who is fast approaching 30. I'm working on getting my weight under control because at the moment, it controls my life. I weigh in every week and as off Tuesday, I will have my gym pass renewed and will be hoping to go as often as possible. On top of that, I'm working towards my nursing degree and spending time with the people that matter to me most. xx