My Journey - Warts and All

So on Sunday it's our 12th wedding anniversary (aaawwww!).  A few wee fun facts for you about 12th Wedding Anniversaries & 24 November. I like doing shit like this. I'm crap in a pub quiz but genenerally have this type of obscure knowledge tucked away 12th Wedding Anniversaries Each wedding anniversary has their suggested gifts and for 12 years, they are below. The gifts originated from the Roman Empire who used to crown their wives with wreaths on their 25th (silver) and 50th (gold) wedding anniversaries.  Traditional (US) - Silk Traditional (UK) - Silk & Fine linen Modern - Pearls, coloured gems Flower - Peony Gemstone - Jade 24th November Couple of events that happened on the day Birthdays 1868 - Scott Joplin 1946 - Ted Bundy (I secretly knew this when we booked the wedding but didn't tell anyone #serialkillernerd) 1955 - Ian Botham 1963 - Neale Cooper 1969 - Rob 'Blasko' Nicholson Deaths 1963 - Lee Harvey

I wanted to do a brief summary of what the last few years have been for me & us So after my 3rd miscarriage my world just fell apart. I had no idea who I was anymore. I wasn’t a mother with a live baby in her arms and I wasn’t someone who wasn’t having babies and concentrating on her career. I LONGED for a baby, it consumed my every thought but so did the fear of having a 4th miscarriage. I looked into every option available, adoption, surrogacy, you name it and I’ve looked into it. I was looking at friends and figuring out if they’d carry a baby for us. Actual surrogacy is incredibly expensive, like thousands and thousands of pounds. Also the law surrounding it in Scotland is crap! There is a 6 week period after the baby is born that the birth mother can change their mind and take the baby back. You then have to get into the whole court situation. Adoption is a long drawn out process, it takes 12+ months and they get into every aspect of your life. I totally understand tha

It's been a really really long time since I posted on here, 1669 days to be exact (yes, I used excel to work that out) I'm not altogether sure why I stopped. I think it was just not as therapeutic for me as it had been when I started. Recent events have made me rethink that though so that's why I'm back. So what's happened in the last 4 years, 6 months & 25 day?? LOADS!!! A few of the bigger things. - I left nursing altogether. After the 3rd miscarriage, I just lost myself. It was a horrible, horrible time and I just couldn't give my patients the emotional support that they needed - The extra tests after the 3rd miscarriage revealed nothing. They have no idea what caused them - I moved back into admin and found my passionate for Excel again! I've always loved Excel but have now taught myself how to make it do everything except make a cup of tea - Matt & I moved back into Edinburgh and have a lovely wee detached house in Gilmerton. It'