Turning it around

Firstly I want to apologise for my last post. Negative doesn't even cover it!! Well I'm apologising, it's how I felt and what I wanted to say at the time.

This morning when I got up I realised I've been living in a funk and it was about time I have myself a good talking too. Not sure how I was thinking so clearly this morning, I haven't slept in about 48 hours but it obviously cleared my head. I'd stopped replying to text messages and would just leave my phone at home when I went out so I didn't have to talk to anyone. Before I'd have my phone surgically attached to me!

So this morning I gave myself a shake. I have a job (when I eventually get a start date), I have some amazing friends and some of them are too far away for my liking but that's alright, Manchester is a great night out and isn't the other side of the world. The swimsuit issues, jeez, no one likes having to buy them! And I managed to get 2 of them. And on top of all that I'm back right in the middle of family support network. I missed my wee granny when I was away and she wasn't shy about telling me how she felt about it (at one point she offered to pay me whatever I was getting in Manchester if I came home and became her nurse). She only started to feel better when she met Kirsty and Leanne and realised I wasn't on my own.

It's a week today that I go away on my friend's hen weekend and I've got all my clothes sorted. I even bought a hat and I'm not talking about a cap like I would normally have bought, a proper hat meant for only a woman lol. Not hiding for me with this hat on.

After the hen weekend, i've got my official Uni graduation to look forward to. I'm so excited to graduate. Three years of hard work and I made it. Congratulations to all the rest of the January 2010 cohort! Won't be able to celebrate too much though: graduation is the Friday and Race for Life is the Sunday.

Anyway loads to look forward to and hopefully we can organise the visit from the Manchester guys soon

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