My Journey - Warts and All

So as l promised last night, here's my first week weigh in. On a plus side, it's the same weight I was when I stopped Commando Training back in Sept/Oct. Got 7st 1lb to go until goal weight. No bother. The healthy way to lose weight is 2lbs a week so that will all be gone by this time next year and that's on the assumption that I go down to this weight.

So I was going to go back to the gym this week. Not going to happen. I downloaded an app for my phone that was just a wee workout thing, no more than 30 mins. By the end of it my hip was killing me and the day after, oh ya boy, I was back on my naproxen and just willing my shift to finish. It's not a good sign at all. I'm going to get the weight off first and then try back at the gym. I'm also going to have to get my new doctor to refer me to a physio :-( I haven't been eating properly since I moved down here. I eat roughly once a day and that's not good for me at all. If a patient was telling me this, I'd tell them that they should be eating more often. I'm a terrible patient lol. I'm going onto a diet that makes me eat 3 times a day so I'll be taking my metformin again and that will hopefully help the weight to come off. Once the weight is off, I know my hip will get better. For the moment, I'm going to have to listen to my previous physio an...

I had an amazing week this week. I actually felt that I was 'getting' the job and then to top it all off Matt came down to Manchester this weekend.  It was a fantastic weekend. We went into Manchester and had a look round the shops, then went for dinner and to the cinema to see our first 3D film. I wasn't that impressed with the 3D bit but maybe that was just the film. I expected things to be flying out of the screen lol. Then on the Sunday we went to the Trafford Centre, had lunch and then went to the pub to watch the football. It was like a month of dates rolled into one weekend!! I worked yesterday morning but last night, we drove home. So I'm home for a couple of days. When we got back the village that we stay in the snow is terrible! My best friend was supposed to be coming through today but the streets aren't safe enough. I'm also meant to be meeting friends in Edinburgh tonight, it should be ok to get through later on. It's just started snowing...

I'm almost at the end of my first full week in my new job and apart from the odd thing here and there is going ok. The only thing with this week is that I'm ssssssoooo homesick! I'm missing my family and my friends. I'm lonely and that's the worst bit of it. I'm hoping that when I get paid and get my gym membership started again I'll feel better but I wasn't expecting the homesickness to last for so long. I'm seeing Matt this weekend and I'm not sure if that's making it worse because I'm so looking forward to it that I just can't wait for the next 2 shifts to be over. Anyway I'm sure it will pass..... My sister got me one of these digital photo frames got Christmas and she loaded it with loads of pictures from our wedding, hen nights, 30th's and all the old photos. I love it. Every picture makes me smile and miss home just a little bit less. I know it will get easier, i just wish it would hurry up :-) On a positive note,...

I've been down in Manchester now for a week and I beginning to feel more settled. There are still things that remind me of home: I saw a taxi advertising Irn Bru and it made me think of home and I've been talking to people about all things Scottish and teaching them Scottish words and phrases. I miss home like crazy and I can't wait to get back for a visit. I think the bit I struggle with the most is eating alone. When I was at home, Matt and I didn't always eat together but I miss not having the option of eating with anyone. Sounds a bit sad really lol. I miss having a bit of company really. I am enjoying it down here though and all my new colleagues are lovely. I forgot how much I like staying in a big city. I've been saying to Matt that I like staying in a wee village but I've really enjoyed being back in a bigger city. I've gotten some lovely cards from home as well, including one from one of my favourite little girls. Looking at the whole situatio...

I've spoken about my PCOS before, it's not a secret. One of my symptoms at 'certain times' is paranoia. When this 'time' is combined with having to travel somewhere I've never been before or having to get somewhere new on time, it leads to me getting my knickers in a right twist. This morning is a prime example of that. I had to travel into central Manchester for induction. New place, new job, you can already imagine the nerves that naturally come with this situation. I've always had a thing about being early. Anyone who has worked with me knows that I'm always really early. Anyway, last night I'd gone to bed early but had then taken 90 mins to actually fall asleep. Then I was awake at 1am, 3am and eventually 5.40am before I gave up sleeping. The lack of sleep was already an indication to me that today was going to be one of those days. So this morning I needed to be in Central Manchester by 8.45am. I had planned out my route, there were 20 m...

I am very aware that my post yesterday was very down in tone and mood. When I started writing this, I promised that I would be honest and that was how I was feeling yesterday. I work up this morning though and was feeling better. I went off and had a productive day. Found the shops, gym, pub and nightclub. I also got all my travel timetables and feel a lot more settled and organised. I'm missing Matt like crazy and as soon as I stopped today, I realised how much I was missing him. But I've spoken to him a few times today and it's made me feel better. I hope it's done the same for him. I'm going to a wifi zone on Sunday and will talk to Matt and my family via FaceTime. I'm also going to go to the pictures in my own next week, something I've never done. Things are looking brighter; we have a provisional date when Matt will come down again, I know my way about and I bought a bottle of Irn Bru today with a Scottish fiver and no questions were asked. Happy ...

Well I'm now officially living in Manchester and what a day it's been. My room is all unpacked and I just need to sort everything out. The room is actually a really decent size. I was expecting a shoebox but if it was a hotel room I'd be more than happy with it. With all my furniture in place, I could put in a single bed. Tomorrow I have a couple of things to do but will spend most of the day walking around and finding out where things are. What I did see today was a drive thru Starbucks (so impressed!!) and a Krispy Kreme. I'm just glad both if these places are a wee bit far to walk and the gym is closer. The worst part of the day without a shadow of a doubt was saying goodbye to Matt. It was BRUTAL!! I'm going to miss him like crazy but I can't thank him enough for doing this for me. His support during however long we end up apart is priceless and I think as a couple, we'll only end up stronger. At the moment I'm sad although I'm sure I'll ...