31.....

It was my birthday on Wednesday and as the subject of this suggests, I turned 31. 

I had a lovely day, just pottering about the house then a tour of Fife with my wee day saver ticket. 

I didn't actually organise anything for this birthday. I wasn't planning to this year but with everything that happened, I never really got round to it. I'm not sure I'd be up for a big group night out anyway. I'm feeling a bit more sociable but I've only really been out with the same few women over the last few weeks. Not sure I would be ready for a bigger night out........

For the first time in a long while, I'm ok with my age. For my 30th, I went out partied like I was in my 20's (which I realised the morning after was a bad idea). This year was different though, I'm 31 and for the first time in 3 years, I'm working at my career again. My relationship is rock solid and as a couple we're in a fantastic place. Negatively I have just had my 2nd miscarriage but I'm starting to look at it like I was blessed with 2 babies who for reasons bigger than me weren't meant to walk the earth.  It doesn't make it any easier but it's a start.

Through what has been a horrible period in my life and my birthday falling so quickly afterwards, it has shown people's true colours. I have some amazing friends, a really fantastic bunch of people who I want to have in my life and to be in theirs. When I started to write this post, I had a bit in here about the other people who don't fall into that category but undecided it just wasn't worth it.

I've struggled to keep my mind focused over the last few weeks, just with everything that's been going on. So as well as my decorating, my aim is to read a whole chapter of my book with a full understanding of what I've read and being able to remember it. Last week I tried to read my book but I've no idea what I actually read! 

A small goal but little steps will get me back to feeling more like myself!


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