What a couple of days......

It's been a horrible few days. We had to face the reality that we had lost the baby and I had to admit it both to myself and everyone else. I've been completely blown away but the level of support that we've received. I knew I had some amazing friends but wow is all I can say.

Now we have to spend time as a couple dealing with what's happened. Today we went for nice lunch together and Matt is playing with his new toy. Anyone who knows Matt knows that he loves his music. He has hundreds of CD's and for years they've been stored away in boxes in the spare room. To say thank you to him for all his love, support and care over the last few weeks, I bought him a unit for all his CD's. As I type this, he's sitting going through them putting them into alphabetical order. Bless him......

I'm still not sure what's going on in my head. Loads of emotions are running through my head and I'm not feeling the same thing from one hour to the next. I forced myself out yesterday for lunch with a friend where we caught up properly and it was a really lovely day. I also had a brilliant chat with another friend last night on the phone. I'm meeting up with her for lunch next week and am meeting a 3rd friend for dinner. One thing that I've been told by a couple of people is to do something to mark the baby. I'm not sure what yet but I have a couple of ideas. We received some beautiful flowers that came with 3 adorable butterflies. The flowers are purple and when I chatting to my mate, she said that purple butterflies are often a symbol for miscarriage. I'm thinking my 'thing' will have something to do with that.

I'm going out for a run on Monday so that will help to clear my mind and start my health kick again. The first picture below sums up how I feel most of the time, the other 2 are just nice words.

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