Right got the exercise down, let's work on the diet

I'm loving going to Commando training! I try and go 3/4/5 times a week and I went out on my first run the other day.


I need to get my diet sorted. I'm skipping meals, eating things that are convenient and eating crap. I know that with my PCOS I know that I'm supposed to eat 6 small meals a day but when I'm working my job doesn't allow it. I know that my eating habits are terrible so I've started to do some work using cognitive behavioural therapy. 


I was trying to work out what emotion is behind my behaviour. Then I realised........ I'm frightened. I'm worried about what will happen if I lose all the weight. I know that by eating what I am and exercising the way that I do, I'll maintain my weight as I am. It's simple maths: calories in minus calories burned equals a deficit. 


I'm frightened about how my relationships will change. I'm scared that I don't know how to be anything other than a big girl. I've never been this size since I was at high school. But I'm going to give it a try. I want to be healthier and fitter. And I deserve my chance. 


I know that my husband will stand right at my side regardless of my size and my family are the same. 


For the next couple of weeks I need to keep a strict food diary, I may even use this and only publish the posts once a week rather than every day.


I can't get to Commando training much next week so I plan to make up for it with a few runs :-)


I've put a wee video below, it's playing on the telly as I'm typing and I think the words really work when a bit of encouragement is needed :-)

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