My Journey - Warts and All

I'm definitely feeling that I need to remind myself of why I'm doing all this. I've finished my degree essay and have at last been able to sit down and think about something else. I just feel like I need to remind myself how far I've actually come. There are 137 days left until my birthday night out and I need to lose as much as possible. When I was at my heaviest in about January 2010, I would guess that I was about 22st. When I started all this weight loss I was 19st 9lbs. I didn't start the blog at this point.  Heaviest weight: 22 st (308lbs) Weight when I started losing: 19st 9lbs (275 lbs) Current weight: 15st 9lbs (219lbs) Weight Lost since I was at my heaviest: 6st 5lbs (89 lbs) Weight Lost since I started losing properly: 4st (56lbs) Weight Left to Lose (if I go all the way down to my goal): 5st 9lbs (79lbs)  On my Facebook account I've got an album of women who I'd love to look like. I'm not disillusioned that there is enough time i...

Well I put on 3lbs this week but I'm not too upset about it. It's not great obviously but I had a brilliant night on Friday, drunk too much and ate rubbish on the Saturday so 3lbs is letting me off lightly! I've been working a lot lately so haven't been able to go to the gym. I can't believe how much I miss it!! I never ever thought that would be me. Hopefully I can get back into it this week before I go on placement next week. I'm on a Monday-Friday placement and should finish no later than 6pm so should be able to get back into it. I need to get my motivation back for it so I'm trying to think lots about my birthday night out. Club is booked with exclusive use for the first 2 hours, hairdresser, make up and nails are all booked. Invites are done as well!! So I've started looking at dresses. I'm hoping that I will have lost another couple of stone by then so should be a more 'normal' size. I still have this fear of the scales as w...

It's been a wee while since I wrote anything in my blog. I haven't even exercised this week. Its been all about revising for an exam that I have on Monday. I can't actually wait until its over. We're going out on Friday night to celebrate and then its off on placement.  I've been thinking about my birthday lately. I've had a couple of 30th for friends and I want to do something for my birthday. So I'm having a big night out in Dunfermline, there is an 80's club that is perfect for it. So that's the plan. Nothing as formal as a proper party but still going to invite all my friends. Most of my friends from Fife know about it already but am going to say to peeps outside of Fife and if they come that would be brill. Its weigh in day tomorrow so I'll be posting tomorrow with my weight loss (fingers crossed!). i'm working 3 days of next week so probably won't get much chance to go to classes.

So the next part of my Jillian Michaels book is to look at the negative self talk that goes on in my head. I have to write it out and then reverse it. So here goes. Negative I am fat and ugly. Although I am at uni studying, I won't finish and will never become the nurse that I want to be. I am too stupid. I am destined to be bigger and my PCOS has control and runs my life. I will never manage to get back to my karate training, I can't even master Body Combat Reversal I am strong physically and mentally. When I finish uni, the world is my oyster. I am a caring and compassionate person and this will transfer into my nursing practice. I am studious and will be a competent nurse as a consequence. PCOS will not run my life. It is just a part of me that I have to deal with. I am over 3 stones lighter than I was in January 2011 and I have lost 35lbs in the last 8 weeks. I have been managing Body Combat for the last 4 weeks and when I'm ready, I will return to my training. Th...

45 mins - Body Combat (with a hottie but a very mean hottie!!)

60 mins - Body Pump (Ouch!) 60 mins - Body Combat (Double ouch!) :-)

I'm reading this new book to try and get my head straightened out a wee bit. It's called 'Winning by Losing: Drop the Weight, Change your Life" by Jillian Michaels and so far its really good. Jillian Michaels was one of the trainers on the Biggest Loser USA. She's amazing on the show, if I could afford it (and we lived in the same country) I would definitely ask her to train me. In the book she recommends using a journal but I think that writing my weight, thoughts and feelings online is really helping. I'm going to use my blog to complete all the bits that the books suggests a journal for. I'm backdating all my goals. So my weight goal will be from when I originally started. Anyway, as part of the book I need to write down my goals both long and short term along with the rewards that I'm going to give myself when I achieve them so here they are.  Ultimate Goal I will lose 120 pounds I will be healthy and happy I will be a size 12 or below for th...

60 mins - Zumba I think this will be my last week of Zumba. I'm pretty bored with it. I don't feel like its giving me the same workout as Body Combat. Need to find me another body combat class :-)

My plan of action for next week. I'll post later tonight when I weigh in Monday 0600 - Gym 1945 - Zumba class Tuesday 1730 - Body Pump 1915 - Body Combay Wednesday Nothing Thursday 1945 - Body Combat 2045 - Funky Dance Friday AM sometime - Gym Saturday Nothing Sunday  0800 - Gym(maybe)

30 mins - Treadmill - Couldn't face running so walked fast and at a 7.0 incline 30 mins - Nice crosstrainer 15 mins - Crossover 15 mins - Arm thing One minute circuits: Kettlebell, squats with drumbells, stomach crunches and lady push ups 2 x circuits of the weights 5 mins stretch/cool down

45 mins - Body Combat 45 mins - Funky Dance And I'm knackered!!!

My new best friends that I never leave the house without........ My food diary and the GI/GL book