When I wrote my last blog, I knew that I had some huge news although I didn't think I would be telling our news this early or that this is how it would end. I'm writing about this because I promised this blog would be honest and the last few weeks have had a huge impact on me as an individual and Matt & I as a couple. I discovered at the end of June that I was pregnant. I was so excited and could not believe it. With my PCOS I had given up any hope of falling pregnant naturally. I was over the moon. Unfortunately at 5 weeks I started to bleed. A week later, I had a scan but they couldn't tell me whether the pregnancy was viable anymore so I've had to wait another week. Today it was confirmed that I have lost the baby. The last 2 weeks have been some of the worst I've ever had. I've only been able to fall asleep by imagining that we were told the baby was still growing. But when I wake up it's like a jolt back to reality when I realise that that's
I'm not really sure what happened yesterday. Well I am, I ran a 5k for the first time ever! But I mean in my head. My friend, Janet, sent me a link to a some free of charge 5k runs that are timed and I'm now having a discussion in my head about which of my fitness things I should do on a Saturday morning! When did that happen??? I've also signed up for a website called the Running Bug community. On every other health kick I've done, I've always said that I don't run and never will run. Ooops! I've found over the last few weeks, I've been a bit more 'zen' as well. I'm a red head and a Leo so am naturally hot headed. I've probably only got really wound up once and that was to do with my job and that's really important to me. My uni course has cost me a few friendships but I've stopped stressing out about it. My real friends understand that I turn into a hermit around the time of exams and essays or that I can't always meet
Well I wasn't as well behaved as I should have been when I met my friend for lunch :-( But I made up for it by the power walk that I did to the nursing office yesterday when I thought our deadline was 12noon. It wasn't it was 2pm but the walk did me good. Then I braved Asda last night to try and get some healthy food in the cupboards. I'm just going to say it, it's cheaper being fat!!! I can't believe how expensive it is to try and eat healthy! I'm trying to follow a low GI diet so that I feel fuller for longer so went to buy super lean beef mince last night. It was double the price of normal beef mince! I'm aware at this point that I sound like a crazy old lady but what I spent last night on a week's worth of shopping wasn't a kick in the backside off what I spend for 2/3 weeks worth normally. Anyway, I just need to keep the end result in sight! I got my target dress last yesterday as well and its great inspiration hanging on my wardrobe door :-
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