30, it's not painful at all :-)

So I turned 30 on Tuesday and I have to say it wasn't painful at all. The Commando circuit part of the day was extremely painful and remained that way until Wednesday night. The actual part where I left my 20's wasn't though. 

 I'm in such a better place now than when I turned 20. On my 20th birthday my dad had only died 3 months before and I was in a terrible place in my head. I had no idea where I would be the next week nevermind 10 years on. I had no idea that 4 months later I'd lose the other man in my life, my grandad. But on a happier note, I didn't know that I'd meet the man who would eventually become my husband just 6/7 weeks after my birthday. Don't get me wrong, the last 10 years haven't been a bed of roses but I like who I am and where I am in my life. 

 I'm actually looking forward to what my 30's have in store. In 4 months I'll be a fully qualified nurse, something that I never thought I'd ever achieve. I'm happily married (5 years this year) and plan to stay that way. I'm healthier and fitter than I've ever been and feel like I'm in control of that part. There's a long way to go (92lbs) but I can see the way forward now.

 I got to thinking about the people in my life as well. There have been lots of entries and exits over the last 10 years. There are some people that I wish had never left my life and I miss them but then there are others that it was just the right thing to do. The people who have come into my life though, I have met some amazing people. With my husband came a whole new host pf people, friends and family. From a personal point of view, my new uni classmates, nurses from placement and most recently, the fantastic guys and girls from CPT. I never thought I'd enjoy exercise quite so much!!! 

 So I suppose the theme of this post is that the past has shaped who I am and where I am but I can't wait to see what the next 10 years has in store for me. I may still be writing this blog and if I am, I'll be reflecting on my 30's. BRING IT ON!!!!!

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