My Journey - Warts and All

60 mins - Aerobics 45 mins - Zumba

Here's my provisional plan for exercise for next week. This is my ideal plan and I'm hoping that I keep to it but I'm definitely feeling like I need a buddy for my class. Starting to feel a bit lonely :-( Monday 60 mins - Aerobic 45 mins - Zumba Tuesday 60 mins - Step 60 mins  Body Combat Wednesday Fat Fighter Weigh in Walking Thursday 45 mins - Body Combat 30 mins - Core Blast Friday Walking Saturday Day off Sunday Day off The Core blast class that I'm planning to do on Thursday is a new class but its only 30 mins so I imagine its going to be a tough class. I'm hoping to do an RPM class in the next couple of weeks. I'm not sure I'll be up to it but its not long until both my big things: THE RACE FOR LIFE - 8 weeks and 1 days away MY 30th BIRTHDAY PARTY - 14 weeks and 6 days away You'd think both of these things would be motivation enough but I'm just struggling to get going, not just with the gym but with my diet as w...

It's 106 days until my party so am trying to get motivated with the weight loss and keep thinking about it. I have another venue lined up which I'm going to see on Sunday after my volunteering shift. Providing I like the room, I'll confirm it and start doing everything. I'm not counting my chickens though, not yet. I've booked Matt and I a room in the hotel the night before the party and then on the night off the party, I have a house full of people staying. I'm getting excited so I'm hoping that spurs on the weight loss this week. I'm just leavin the stress of the last few weeks, it's not worth it. So the party.....plan is 80's themed all the way. Room decorations, invites and most importantly dress code. I'm not going to force anyone to dress up (except Matt) but it'll be good fun. It's also an easy and relatively cheap one to do. Neon colours, leg warmers and big hair for the girls and a Michael J Fox from Back to the Future loo...

I only lost half a pound again tonight. I was raging with myself!!! I've gone from losing 5 or 6 pounds a week and now I've lost 1 pound in 2 weeks. Rubbish!! This is what I do, I hit a plateau and then struggle to get past it. I need to kick my ass this week and get a good loss. I'm hoping that that will kick things off again. So the plan for next week is the following: Tomorrow - Body Combat Friday - Walking home and then walking with my friend Saturday - Gym. Maybe a class if I see one that I fancy Sunday - Nothing Monday - Aerobics Tuesday - Step and then Body Combat Wednesday - Weigh in If anyone wants to do a class with me next week, please let me know. I need all the help I can to stay on the straight and narrow.

Well I did step tonight and I was knackered!!! I couldn't even face doing Body Combat. My whole body aches. I'm loving the instructor for my step class so I've decided to take her aerobics class on Monday night. It's such a difficult class but its good. My left foot still didn't know what my right one was doing lol I'm also getting my birthday party plans back on track. I've found somewhere offering a great deal but they can't do the Saturday and I would have to change my date to the Friday. I love this hotel though and I'm really thinking about it. Decisions, decisions. I'm going to see it on Sunday so we'll see what I think about it then. Oh and its weigh in day at Fat Fighters tomorrow, fingers crossed!!!

Well I lost half a pound this week. Rubbish!!!!! I hadn't really tried if I'm honest so I think I'm more annoyed with myself. This week hasn't been much better. I've been trying harder at the exercise malarkey but it has been an awful week outside of the weight loss. The new week today didn't change that either, it's been a terrible start to the week as well. Tonight I think I'm going to try to get to Zumba, tomorrow night is step and body combat and then Wednesday is weigh in day. I'm going to need to try and live my life the way my Jillian Michaels books says. I'm going to give myself an ulcer before I'm 35 at this rate. I can't even be bothered organising my own 30th birthday party and I love organising events! The venue fell through and I'm now trying to find somewhere that has an events person so I don't have to do it. That's not me at all. I'm having to ask someone else to take over what I love doing! Something...

I know that I've been saying all week about going to the gym but I haven't been going. I just couldn't be bothered. Last night though, I went back with a bang. I did an hour of Step and then an hour of Body Combat. Oh my!!!! Step is a hard class. Not just the actual workout which is really hard going but the process of actually going the class. My left foot didn't know what my right foot was doing. And this morning, everything hurts. My legs were sore from Step and then Body Combat worked everything else!! I've signed up for Body Combat on Thursday and the same two classes next Tuesday. I'm also going for a run (I'm using that word loosely, think it'll just be a walk) tonight and Friday. I've got a busy wee weekend so O won't be working out this weekend at all. Tonight is also my first weigh on at Fat Fighters so fingers crossed

Well my willpower has almost disappeared completely. But I'm trying so hard to get it back. I'm going back to Weight Watchers and I don't like the leader so I'm hoping I start to work hard to prove her wrong! I'm also thinking about my 30th. The venue I had provisionally booked let me down. The arrangements weren't sitting right with me, they wanted deposits in cash, she wouldn't respond to my emails, she wanted a really high number of my friends in the club within 30 mins of the club opening. The club is lucky if it attracts 50 people on a Saturday night. It just wasn't right and she's irritated me by not replying to my emails. So I told her that it was done and I wasn't going to use them. Funnily enough I got a phone call the very next morning asking me to call her back. I don't think so!! Anyway onwards and upwards, I've got somewhere else in the pipeline and I'll confirm it as soon as possible. The other thing about...

Well I signed up to Weight Watchers tonight. Well, I got a complete shock when I stepped on the scales. The scales that I have been using in Tesco's are totally wrong. So it's a fresh start, new weight.  So my new starting weight is 18st 2.5lbs. I'm gutted but I can't dwell on it. Let's just get this weight off!!!

I can feel my willpower slipping away from me completely. I just can't be bothered with anything, not just the gym. Don't want to eat healthy and when I use my 30th to try and motivate me, it just reminds me of the stress that's causing me. I should have stuck to my original plan and let it pass me by unnoticed! The place I had booked are bugging me no end with their lack of commitment/confirmation. The woman is about 2 days away from a piece of my mind! So I'm going to go back to Fat Fighters tonight aka Weight Watchers. I need to do something cause I dob't want to be fat so I'm going to see if Fat Fighters can whip me into shape. I think I might also have to drag myself kicking and screaming back to the gym. Body Combat on Thursday night should be sufficient punishment. I'll let you know how I do at WW tonight

I have royally fallen off the wagon for the last few weeks but my 1st degree essay has been submitted and I'm getting used to being back out on placement so I have no excuse at all. So tomorrow when I get paid, I'm going back to the gym. The plan is: Tuesday - Body Combat Wednesday - Step Thursday - Body Combat Friday - Body Combat Saturday - Gym or Body Pump Sunday - Volunteering Food diary starts again as well. I also have action points from my Jillian Michaels book: 1. Removing stressful relationship from my life 2. Developing a support system. According to my book I need a partner in crime, a role model and a fan 3. Changing my self talking (I have post previously about my negative self talk)  4. Avoiding tempting situations 5. Curbing mindless eating 6. Cutting Portion Size So this week the cup is half full and I'm back on it like a car bonnet!!!!! :-)